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Sunday, July 06, 2008

just dun feel tht everyone around me is true or realli care for me.....when i feel tht i just simply feel tht i suck, i hate myself, i hate myself.....i think i'm bad, not good at all tht is y everyone seem like picking on me...i dunno y i feel this way.....i realli hate my self......i'm realli living in this world good for nothing..........

i just simply feel tht when things DUN go the right way and will jus say its my fault........will just get angry with me and it is realli not my fault.....i knoe if i say onli tht person fault there are bound to be someone help tht person say good thing.....i'm being so innocent........yah right.....i cannot control my feeling but if no ppl start it i will not be like tht de lor......

yah its my fault to let all this happen, all my fault to let my emo and feeling go wrong.....it went out of control what can i do........but if tht thing never happen i think i won't get so emotional.....i already had change alot since tht thing happen long ago....but think u all dun think tht way bah....

it took me so long to leave ur world but u pull me back into it.......i realli dunno what had happen.......even my friend also dunno what he want sia......yah maybe he is not sure of himself bah....i dun think so leh.........i think he just want to play since we so long no meet bah...

now i got to take my time to heal again...........i realli dunno hu i can tel to...........

i now also feel funnie.........if he treat me too well i will fell in.........but if someone told him to stop it.......i feel so upsad tht he dun care me................i'm confuse sia............but what i simply want is tht can he just treat me like NORMAL...........dun like last time de us le....

i dun knoe he got read my blog mah........all my friend say he will.........but i just believe tht he will not..........cause he will not even care abt my things since he got so many thing to do and care for........there will be no time for me de.......but sometime i do realli hope he did read....but i dun want to stress him tht i'm not ok.....

no worries i'm ok liao....

to him......
i dunno y i ge back all those feeling, but i just want to tel u not to worry.........i will NOT LOVE U wor......dun get the feeling tht i still like u........we can still be friend wor....but think by now u are staying away from me again....but thanks so tht i can dun think of you...

.............get so emotional cause its the girl thing tht pester me again!!!feel better after saying to a few ppl.......